This is why I avoid it. The minor fall and the major lift….the goosebumps, the song, the music.
I hear my daughter laughing in the other room and my guitar calling out to me. Such a perfect metaphor of my life as I now know it.
I love my life. I do, but I do miss music. I miss that release.
Ya, this sounds like drama, but…. I twists me into a knot sometimes.
I miss it so much.
How can you have both? I have convinced myself you can’t. So I just bury it. I push it down. I avoid it. And then, in a moment of weakness, I seek it out and then I fight to put Pandora back in the box.
Time to put Liv down. Back to reality.